at 63

Three years ago, stroke robbed us of the chance to run together at sunrise
but i'll never get tired of walking with you during your morning walks.
You may not be able to travel to different places as you used to be
but i always enjoy the conversations we have about my adventure trips.
Your speech may not be as fluent as before but
i always love listening to your stories and your laughter is a music to my ears.
you may not be as strong as you were in the past
but you're still my superman.

At 63,
with good health,
stress free retirement,
successful children,
happy marriage, and
grateful heart
I believe that you've done a great job
and still living a good life...
i hope in the years to come,
we can give you grand children
and show you through endless opportunities that you are deeply loved.

happy birthday daddy.
i love you across the universe,
and back.

2 months

2 months without any blog entry
maybe,
i had been hibernating
keeping my thoughts
hiding my feelings
running somewhere
flying out there
so much had happened
many are still happening...

i'm happy,
definitely back
starting a new
ready for everything...

this thought really inspires me--

“The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing. He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot
learn, feel, change, grow or love. Chained by his certitude, he is a slave; he has forfeited his freedom. Only the person who risks is truly free.” ― Leo Buscaglia

heart whisphers

Heavenly Father,
You love me and you call me every moment of my life.
You have a plan for me,
a plan that will help me grace the world
in the unique way that only I can.
Send your Spirit into my heart and mind.
Enlighten me with your wisdom
that I may come to know today
where you are calling me in life.
Give me the strength today
to answer that call
and inspire others to help me.
I make this prayer
through Christ Our Lord. Amen.

7175

You can reach me by railway, you can reach me by trail way
You can reach me on an airplane, you can reach me with your mind
You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here, just- get here if you can
You can reach me by sailboat, climb a tree and swing rope to rope
Take a sled and slide down the slope, into these arms of mine
You can jump on a speedy colt, cross the border in a blaze of hope
I don't care how you get here, just- get here if you can
**There are hills and mountains between us
Always something to get over
If I had my way, then surely you would be closer
I need you closer (interlude, then repeat bridge)
You can windsurf into my life,
take me up on a carpet ride
You can make it in a big balloon,
but you better make it soon
You can reach me by caravan,
cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here,
just- get here if you can
I don't care, I don't care,
I need you right here right now
I need you right here, right now,
right by my side (yeah,yeah, yeah, yeah)
I don't care how you get here, just- get here if you can

sa tuwing naririnig ko ang awiting ito, ikaw ang naaalala ko. August din yun di ba? ilang August na rin ang lumipas, pero sa kantang ito ikaw pa rin ang himig ko. sana patuloy kang maging masaya at walang sawang yakapin ang kahulugan ng buhay at tunay na pag-ibig. salamat sa lahat, hayaan mo balang-araw makikita rin tayo.

young l♥ve

Gaya ng dati, pagtunog ng kampana sa dapit-hapon
ang aking mga yapak ay unti-unting tinatahak ang daang palagian ng binabaybay.
Patungo kung saan umaawit ang kampana, sa Kanyang dambana.
Kaunti ang mga tao sa simbahan, tahimik at taimtim ang mga dasal.
Bago magsimula ang pagdiriwang, nakuha ang aking pansin ng isang batang lalaki
na mag-isang naglakad papasok at umupo sa unahan.
Siguro siya ay mga walong taon gulang at pula ang Tshirt nya (baka birthday).
Habang nagmimisa, nandoon din sya sa isang sulok ng simbahan, nakikilahok sa Sakramentong banal.
Sa aking pag-iisa napangiti ako ng makita ko siyang pumila sa pagkumonyon, may saya sa aking damdamin ang masilayan siyang lumuhod at seryosong nananalangin.
Sa aking pagdarasal aking nabanggit, Panginoon, pakinggan Mo po ang panalangin ng batang ito. Sana sa bawat sandali ng kanyang buhay maramdaman niya ang Iyong pagmamahal at yakapin niya ito ng buo.
Nang matapos ang misa, sinundan ko siya ng tanaw habang palabas ng simbahan.
Inaabanagan ko na lalapit siya sa kanyang nanay o sinuman ang kasama niya, pero humanga ako lalo ng makita ko siyang sumusipul-sipol palabas ng simbahan papunta sa gate, walang kasabay.
Muli kong nabanggit sa king sarili, Lord salamat ha, sa muling pagpapaalala, na ang pagmamahal mo sa akin at ganoon din sa iba. Masaya ako na makita yun ngayon, sa mukha ng isang bata.

*hugs*

salamat sa mga mata,
na nag magmulat sa akin sa kagandahan ng mundo.
salamat sa pang-amoy,
na naging daan upang malanghap ang halimuyak ng hangin.
salamat sa pandinig,
na naging tulay upang marinig ang saliw ng musika.
salamat pakiramdam,
na nagpadama sa akin ng tibok ng aking puso.
salamat Panginoon
sa mga biyayang pinagkaloob mo sa akin
at sa paglikha ng aking pag-katao upang maging Sa'yo.

thank you for the everyday miracles and angels
love mo talaga ako Lord,
at love din kita.
*HUGS*
(prayer 07.13.11., 5pm mass, Christ the King Churc, AdNU)

112

hello sunshine...
hindi mo lang (siguro) alam
kung gaano mo ako napapasaya
sa mga simpleng bagay
sa ordinaryong pag-uusap
sa nakasanayang ugnayan
tuwa talaga ang dulot mo sa akin
pati kilig na rin
kaya ang puso ko nakangiti
at tila may kakaibang kiliti
ang humahaplos sa aking damdamin
sa tuwing iisipin ko na ika'y nariyan
salamat ha...
(hanggang sa muli ha ♥♥♥)
toinks!

exempted

ang qualifications, standards at ideals
ay para lang sa taong
'di mo gusto, ayaw gustuhin at disqualified
kasi pag nag love ka
'di na yun applicable
kasi yung taong mahal mo
siya yung exempted at may immunity
sa standards, ideals at qualifications...

006

(message alert tone)
another rainy day.
how are you.
keep dry.
be safe.
take care.
i miss you.

weeeh...
don't worry i'm okey here.
para ring binabagyo ang puso ko
sa kilig dahil sa text mo
thank you

another sunday's best

(late post)
among all the great blessings
God allowed me to have
you are one the greatest...

i am deeply loved and
my life is happy
because
you are my daddy...

happy father's dad
♥♥♥

green

tapos na ang summer, nandito na ang tag-ulan.
kulay berde na ang paligid
hay...
naaalala kita
kumusta ka na kaya?
tagal na nating 'di nagkikita
'di na mabilang na dapit-hapon
ganun din na bukang-liwayway...
kelan kaya tayo muling magkakatagpo?
pangarap na--
masilayan ang iyong mukha
masabayan ang iyong mga tawa
makasalo sa hapag-kainan
makakwentuhan ng walang katapusan
malasing ng sabay
maglaitan ng walang sawa
damayan sa iyakan
kasabay magsimba
mangarap sa ilalim ng buwan
hay…
ilang taon na ba?
gaano katagal pa kaya?

Kay ganda ng buwan ngayong gabi
Sana napagmamasdan mo rin...
Sabi ko nga sa buwan--
Ngitian ka ng buong tamis at ibulong sa’yo
“miss na kita green lantern”
♥♥♥

5pm

Sa paglubog ng araw sa dapit-hapon
hayaan ang mga yapak tumungo sa isang sulok ng mundo
upang magnilay at magdasal
sa katahimikan, damhin ang pagmamahal...

Sa malaking silid dasalan
sa hanay ng mga upuan
kagaya ng mga nakaraang araw--
ikaw ay naroon
nag-iisa sa gitna ng karamihan...

Pinagmamasdan kita
habang ikaw ay
taimtim na nagdarasal
ng may malalim na pagmamahal;
binubulong kay Kristo
ang tibok ng iyong puso...

Tapos na ang misa
lumingon uli ako
sa kinaroroonan mo
sa aking isipan...
nasabi ko sa'yo--
bukas uli ha…

Gusto kitang makilala.
Kelan kaya yun?
Sana bukas na...

curious lang ako
kung sino ka?
at baka sakaling gusto mo maging--
Heswita...
hehehe

[para kay Praying Alone, isa sa mga regular 5pm mass goer sa Christ the King Church. Kukuha lang ako ng tyempo, para magpakilala sa'yo.)

007

Today marks my 7th year in the Ateneo....
work and friends
• Joy at work comes from the humble reality that I am one of those who help in the formation of men and women who are Christ-centered, Competent, Persons of Conscience and Compassionately committed to change.
• Co -workers here are not just colleagues but also friends, who journey with me every day. They share in my difficulties and multiply my happiness. They are my support system equally strong as the four pillars.
lessons and wisdom
• Formation work is a continuous journey to be better and to give more, that in doing so, I do not just learn cognitive ideas and useful skills but also important life lessons and more, I come to embrace how to be truly human.

joys and struggles
• The joys that I have are the happy memories that I treasure in my heart--the blessing of good friends, the opportunity to serve and the chance to share in the mission of working for the Primum Regnum Dei.
• The struggles made me more aware of the stirrings within, they taught me to be more discerning, to always decide in freedom and clean conscience.
love and consolations
• Love is fire that lights my passion. It is the air that sustains me. The reason that moves me.
• My heart is grateful for the consolations, graces, blessings and beyond that I received, they are more than what I prayed for.
a journey to magis
My pledge is to embrace life fully and walk in the path, the way and manner that will lead me to the purpose, meaning and reason of my life, my God.
+amdg+
In thanksgiving, I say, to God be the glory.

lucky me

I placed a bet on this week’s big lotto jackpot. I spent 20 on it pesos (isang cornetto na yun). I hoped to be the lucky winner (along with millions of Filipinos).

I did not win, but someone did.
With that, I asked myself,—what are the “treasures” of my life?

•My beautiful family whose love sustains me through the years, across the distance and beyond the test of times. Their love strengthens me to spread my wings and soar high.
•The countless relatives who made my growing years (up to this date) really remarkable and truly fun. I have countless memories and experiences of happy times with them.
•Wonderful and genuine friends who made me happy with their companionship and undaunted support. They are the angels who brought sparkles of heaven on the path I walk on earth.
•My mentors who taught, motivated and patiently formed me through my education and provided inspiration beyond classrooms and throughout my life.
•My life. It cuddles opportunities and chances that give me occasions to discern and to choose. The ability to search, hope, risk, love, hold on, let go, set free and move on. The moments to learn, forget, remember, cherish, linger, dwell, nurture, reap, sustain and change. The times of laughter, tears, pain, joys, sorrows, triumphs, consolations, desolations, answers, doubts, fullness and emptiness. The instances of enlightenment, confusion, darkness, light, depths, shallow, shadows and clarity. All these, I have felt in one way or another, speak to me heart and created stirrings that lead to embrace fully my life.

I am not perfect but I’m giving my best shots to remain committed to magis. I rely my entire being on my Core, my Creator. I am committed to grow more in my intimate relationship with my God.

I may have a good life but I don’t have everything. I still desire for more and want many.

I looked at my lotto ticket, reality sipped in. I did not win, but somebody did. However, the question, stirred me to look deeply into the realities of my life and made me appreciate more the countless blessings I have. I guess all these are far better than 356 million grand prize. For having and living my life with the people I love and with the opportunities I have is far beyond better than hitting the jackpot.

Once again I bowed my head...
Lord, thank you for all. I don’t have everything but I have the bests. Lucky me.
At isa pa, birthday ko nga pala ngayon. Yehey!

brooks

Sunrise road run
Eucharistic celebration
Healthy breakfast
Happy Wednesday
Good morning sunshine!

I'm looking forward to Sunday
I'm excited to run on new routes
with Myang Ligaw and Running Warrior

I'm still discerning if I will
wear this (my new motto)
on my back as I run--

RUNNING HAPPY.
LIVING FREE.
LOVING MORE.

for a mutant friend

You are a man of few words, minsan may mga kwento at reklamo ka rin pero ang dating macho pa din. Siguro ganoon talaga ang personality mo, direct to the point, wala masyado explanation and emotion. At lalo pang naemphasize ang yung pagiging tahimik kasi ang mga kasama mo ‘di matigil sa pagsasalita (sabagay kung sasabay ka pa sino na makikinig sa kanila). You’re a man of action. Kaya siguro ang galing mo tumakbo. Minsan duda ako na mutant ka,(most likely totoo nga) okey lang mabait ka naman. Palaging busy, pero may social life. Focus and rational. Adventurous and carefree. Seryoso at low profile.

Salamat

For the many movie treats (lalo na kapag 3D), ‘di ka nadadala magyaya. For the ice cream times. masarap talaga sa CS (lalo na kapag libre) at masayang kakulitan ang mga kasama. Tawanan at kwentuhan na walang humpay. For the road trips (photoshoots at swimming) mga lakad na kung saan-saan, basta may kalsada, may pwedeng puntahan, sa mga bundok, tabing dagat at mga falls. Because of your sense of adventure, mas napamahal ako sa ganda ng bicol. For the get togethers. Isa ka sa mga promotor ng buko juice sessions, of which I’m very thankful na dun ko kayo (mga katulad ko na lakwatsero at ayaw umuwi ng maaga) nakilala at madalas nakasama (nung may mga bisyo pa tayo hahaha).. Kwentuhan. Tawanan. Inuman. Kainan. Pagkakaibigan. For the road runs (our saving grace) sa ating lahat ikaw talaga yung seryoso dito. I was privileged to witness your metamorphosis as a runner.. From your first 10km run up to your farthest, lagi ako happy and proud sa tuwing mag-aabang kami sa pagdating mo finish line. Thank you for the tips and techniques (running coach), sa mga pagkain at energy drink na baon mo (na halos kami ang nakakaubos haha) and for the challenge and encouragement you give to us to pursue for more.

I will miss your company and your eccentric (in a good way) personality. I am very happy that you survived the last two years (despite the dangers, storms and earthquakes) without change of heart. Let my prayers accompany you, as you journey back home.
Go on, the road is long, run along. Be free and be happy. Together let’s run to the finish line! God bless you, dear friend.
See you soon.

basta

Sa tuwing tayo'y magkakalayo
Hindi matahimik ang puso ko
Bawat sandali hanap kita
'Di mapakali hanggang muling makita ka
Dahil kung ika'y makita na
Labis-labis ang tuwang nadarama
Magisnan lamang ang kislap ng iyong mata
Kahit ano pa ay kakayanin ko na

**Basta't kasama kita
Lahat magagawa
Lahat ay maiaalay sa'yo
Basta't kasama kita
Walang kailangan pa
Wala nang hahanapin pa
Basta't kasama kita.

Giliw, sana ay ikaw na nga
Ang siyang mananatiling kasama ko
Dahil kung ika'y mawawala
Pati lahat sa buhay ko'y maglalaho

Repeat**

Walang kailangan pa
Wala nang hahanapin pa
Basta't kasama kita.

luma na ang kantang 'to. korni rin kung iisipin. pero kamakailan lamang ay nakuha ang atensyon ko ng muli ko itong marinig(dun sa korean teleserye na secret garden hahaha). ewan ko ba kung bakit may kilig at kakaibang haplos sa damdamin ko. para bang may kiliti sa puso ko tuwing naririnig ko ito. pakiramdam na may mumunting kuryente na tumatawid sa aking dibdib at nagdadala ng ngiti sa labi ko. toinks!

siguro dahil, ikaw ang naiisip ko--espesyal ka talaga sa buhay ko.

hehe, excited na ako magvideoke. kakantahin ko ito sigurado.♥♥♥

sunday's best

Dear God, please bless all mothers, specially mine. Thank you so much for their great love, constant presence and gentle hands that unceasingly love and nurture us. They have shown and shared to us generosity, endurance and strength through their comforting words and unparalleled support that motivate and inspire us in our endeavors. May we (their children) make them proud and happy for they are our inspiration. And through our simple ways, may we make they feel that they are loved beyond measure and they are irreplaceable in our lives. Amen.

mama, without powers and magic you are the best heroine in my life.♥♥♥

happytears

I was very happy to hear the news. Listening to you, excitedly telling me the story in between sobs(drowning with joy) on the end of the line, brought happy tears in eyes. We’ve been waiting for this. The prayers had been granted. The blessing was given.

My only regret is that, I’ll not be able to witness the ceremony in person. For that, I am very sorry. But I will surely celebrate with you, across the seas and in between islands.

Never forget how happy and proud I am of the man you are now. I will never cease to thank God for allowing you to be part of my life. You will always be my best memory of summer.

Prayers and love for you always. ♥HB

heaven

Beautiful moon
Starlit sky
Top of the mountain
Freezing weather

Simple cabin
Lighted fireplace

New acquaintances
Adventure companions
Warm hosts
Delighted guests
Dearest friends

Delicious wine
Delectable chips
Cheerful people
Funny games
Entertaining stories
Meaningful conversations

A cloud nine adventure
Amazing grace

Peaceful mind
Thankful spirit

My heart is happy.


Thank you for all
04.10.2011
11:58pm, George’s, Rum 4
This was the picture of my last night in Sagada. The whole experience was an amazing 3 days and 2 nights of heaven on earth.

silent miracle

Dear Running Warrior,

For all that had been, there are 5 things that I would like to thank you for---
• For every day fun and laughter. You are a poor joker, bad in math, master blooper but your one liner banats are truly remarkable. The everyday dosage of semplang is like vitamin that never fails to lift up our mood. Totoy bibo, crowd’s favorite, may sapi minsan (kaya hambogon man), madaming fans and certified crush ng bayan (weeehhh!). Gaya ng sabi ko sa’yo – kahit ano o sino ka tanggap ka namin, pinili ka (kasi wala ibang choice). At kung magdadala ka ng malaking lata at maglalakad-lakad sa centro hehe ‘di kita tutulungan pero sasabay pa rin ako sayo (kahit sobrang nakakahiya) hahaha!
• For the chance of knowing your friends and family. Thank you for welcoming us in your home and for allowing us to meet your great family, we really enjoyed it, it was super fun.
• Thank you adventure companion. We’ve been to many adventures—road trips to the hidden beaches, falls and beautiful bicol sceneries, hike in mt. isarog, calaguas weekend, caramoan escape, albay adventure and the coming soon sagada trip. Thank you for the coko café breakfasts, pansit canton lunch in my apt, GD and sta cruz’ snacks. The memorable dinners at Karlos, Molino, Chicken Bacolod, Grill Plus, Mcdonalds, Shakeys, and more. The countless Coffee and Co sessions (with a spy), Starmark times, Kwentong Starbucks and the heartwarming TCB moments (ang sacred space sa favorite couch). Birthday surprises. Christmas parties. Disco nights. Toing-its and sungka games. Basketball games. Eucharistic celebrations. Processions. Movies and sound trips. Buko juice buckets and videoke concerts. Photo shoots and kung fu panda poses.
• Thank for your constant presence (kumbaga sa student-perfect attendance, sa guard-on duty, sa doctor on call…) Thank you for sharing yourself in this friendship--lights and shadows, ups and down, laughter and tears, runs and pauses, talks and air gaps, humility and humbugs, insights and reflections, kaaway at kakampi, funny arguments and stimulating conversations, crowd and solitude, coded stories and bold assumptions, maturity and hayskulon, waaah and weeeh, choices and options, heartaches and heart leaps, beauty and madness. Thank you for sharing the joy in the sunshine and for resonating with the magical moon. Sa alon ng buhay, ihip ng hangin, tibok ng puso. I believe in my heart that you are the brother God forgot to give me but he surely made up for that—He allowed you to be my friend.
• Thank you and ‘good morning sunshine’. Among many things that I’ll miss having you around is our morning road runs. Maogma na makaiba ko kamo sa jogging, sa training and actual runs. Kamo ang idol ko. Thank you for the patiently waiting at AdNU main gate, thank you for keeping up with my pace as we run, thank you for sharing the blessings at sunrise. Thank you for the opportunity of running with you from our simple jogging days up to the great 80km ultra marathon. Future road runs will be tough for me because both of you will not be around anymore. Salamat sa tips, techniques and encouragement. See you at the finish line soon.

I am deeply happy that after two years of rerouting, you are going back home. God had called you and blessed you with a gift of vocation, may you remain committed to it in times of consolations and desolations. May you find reason to stay beyond cognitive understanding and feelings, may you always have a discerning heart and may you never forget that all is grace. Palagi at‘di ako titigil na kulitin at lambingin si God na ‘wag kalimutan pakinggan ang iyong mga dasal, panatilihing payapa ang puso at isipan at palaging may saya sa damdamin..

I look forward to life thinking I’ve been friends with you—it’s truly a blessing, having a friend like you, a silent miracle. Indeed, I am lucky (but still, you are luckier wahahaha).

With love and prayers,
heartbeat*

drama king

Bihasa sa wikang tagalog.
Magaling (daw) magluto (pero ‘di pa ako nakatikim ng luto nya).
Mahilig sa badminton.
Minsan sumasama sa fun run (lalo na pag organize ng “kapatid” o kaibigan hehe).
Masipag at masinop na guro at moderator.

Masarap kakwentuhan.
Talakayan at pag uusap na di matapos-tapos.
Kasabay tumawa.
Kausap sa mga kwentong ‘di maubus-ubos.

Salamat sa mga dapit-hapon na dumadaan ka dito sa opisina para makipag kwentuhan at kumustahan. Masaya ako sa iba’t-ibang kwento mo, walang dull moment. Malalim kang kausap puno ng sense at depth. Amaze din ako sa zeal at passion mo sa buhay. Aliw ako sa pagkabibo mo. Minsan may pagkasuplado ka pero alam ko ika’y nagpapakatotoo. Nakakaaliw ang pagkaprangka, mabiro at seryoso.

Sa mga kwentong dasal, alon o kapanatagan, salamat sa pagbabahagi. Sa drama ng buhay na naikwento mo, marami akong natutunan. Sa mga oras na babad sa buko juice, sa paglibre ng ice cream at pasalubong na spaghetti, sa pagbabahagi ng sarili na kasalo ang kape, sa mga plano at trabahong pinagtulungan-maraming salamat.

Kunting panahon lang tayo nagkasama at naging magkaibigan, para sa akin ‘yun ay makahulugan.

As you go and continue your way bring with you my best wishes and prayers, may you never run out of reasons and strength to love in moments of consolations and desolation. May you remain committed as you embrace this life and nurture your vocation. I will remain to be your prayer warrior. I will miss you my friend. Take care, dear brother. The one and only, Drama King.

call

for more than a month already, this is my welcome song at sunshine, closing song at sunset and lullaby at moonlight.... there are stories behind the sounds, thoughts in between lines and heartbeats as it bring butterflies in my heart...

it started out as a feeling
which then grew into a hope
which then turned into a quiet thought
which then turned into a quiet word

and then that word grew louder and louder
'til it was a battle cry

i'll come back
when you call me
no need to say goodbye

just because everything's changing
doesn't mean it's never
been this way before

all you can do is try to know
who your friends are
as you head off to the war

pick a star on the dark horizon
and follow the light

you'll come back
when it's over
no need to say good bye

now we're back to the beginning
it's just a feeling and now one knows yet
but just because they can't feel it too
doesn't mean that you have to forget

let your memories grow stronger ans stronger
'til they're before your eyes

you'll come back
when it's over
no need to say good bye

{this song also goes to the 3 bachelors that i have been blessed to share a beautiful friendship for the last 2 years. God bless you and i will surely miss having you around.tc)

friday*

My week had been perfect until Mr.Bomb told me the news.
I was disappointed; I was expecting to hear the opposite of it.
But I am more saddened by the fact that he can’t explain why.
The day went through with my heart processing in silence the confusion within.
Hearing the mass did not appease the turmoil inside me.
I can’t find someone to talk to, everyone is busy.
I went to centro hoping that change of air will make me feel better.
To no avail, nothing different happened.
The solitary dinner gave me some sort of comfort but anxiety within lingers.

I decided to have an early night.
While on my way home, I received a text message from Drama King inviting me for a cup of coffee (his treat)
Whoa! What a surprise…
In our designated meeting place, I saw two friends with their bright smiles amidst the pouring rain.
I vowed my head in silent prayer of thanksgiving – Thank you God for sending not just one angel but two of your best ones.

We had ice cream as I poured out my heart. I felt better after sharing my thoughts. I knew I was not alone I was blessed to have two angels with their hidden wings and loving hearts embracing me with the warmth of friendship.
To celebrate the night, we had a bucket full of buko juice, talking, discussing stories and sharing thoughts about our future plans.

It dawned on me the reality that in few weeks time we will go separate ways, but I’m deeply happy for having them as my friends, I must have done something good for God to allow me to have friends like them.

Drama King and Running Warrior, thank you—my Friday angels. ♥♥♥

ticktack

The countdown begins
One day at a time...

Every sunrise, every sunset
I’ll spend them with you
Every smile, every frown
I’ll share them with you
Every surprise, every expectation
I make them come true
Every success, every triumph
I’ll celebrate them with you
Every tear drop, every downfall
I’ll cry with you

The countdown begins
Every heartbeat,
Will be for you
Until our last day
together

[for hope green and violet ranger, until the end]
♥♥♥

639

you make me like you each time you said my name
your voice is such a beautiful music to my ears
each time i see your smile my heart leaps for joy
your presence brings gladness that makes my days happier
i'm truly grateful that you are here.

tough days are coming
the countdown begins
i'm staying.
♥

ayAW

ayokong lumipas ang mga oras
gusto ko manatili ang bawat sandali
pwede bang hindi umusad ang mga araw
hindi dumating ang bukang liwayway
hindi sumapit ang dapit-hapon
at hindi masilayan ang sinag ng buwan.

gusto ko ang ngayon...
hindi ka akin pero ikaw ay nandyan
hindi hawak ang iyong mga kamay
pero malapit at abot-tanaw
hindi pag-aari ag iyong puso
pero alam ang pakiramdam.

konting panahon pa,
muli na namang mabibiyak ang aking puso
ulit mararanasan ang kawalan at pagkabigo
dahil
sa nalalapit mong paghakbang palayo.

(isang malungkot na tula, katha ang isang kaibigan na nasa gitna ng isang madramang proseso ng usaping puso. Salamat Hope Green sa pagbabahagi ng tula at kwento, hangad ko ang iyong kaligayahan. Nandito lang ako ♥)

HT

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba
Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
Happy together
So happy together
So happy together (ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba)

[UC had been practicing this song for several days already and every time they sing --a smile crosses my lips and my heart skips a beat. There is only one memory that lingers-- the story of you. It's good to see you again today, once more, I was taken by your smile, Angel Gabriel. toinks♥]

f*ing

ngiti sa labi
na hindi mapigil
at walang mapagkublihan.

kiliti sa puso
na may kakaibang pakiramdam
tila ba bumabalik ang mga nakaraan.

Kumusta ka na?
Saan ka na nakatira?
May asawa ka na kaya?
O baka dalaga at malaya?

ginugunita ko yung unang pakikita
sa isang seminar
ika’y napagmasdan
at nabighani ng kagandahan.

nadaan din sa isipan ang mga awitin ng kahapon
ano na nga ba ang tono noon?
marahil ang mga tugtugin ng gitara
ay muling maaalala kapag nakita kita.

naalala ko yung kwento ng ice cream
hay, bakit may mga paru-paro sa aking tiyan?
at sa tuwing kakain nito
may nagugunitang kwento tungkol sa’yo.

ngiti sa labi na 'di mapigil
sa mga text na tila kay sayang basahin
may kakaibang mahika
ang dala sa damdamin.

may kiliti pa rin sa puso
kahit kay tagal lang panahon ang lumupas
bakit tila ang mga alaala mo
at hindi kumukupas?

hahayaan ko na lamang ito
hindi na ako masyado magtatanong
at baka ang pag-uusap ay saan pa humantong.

ngiti sa labi
kiliti sa puso
hay, san nga ba pwede ihambing
ang spark na dala ng isang ka fling?

(like what i told you these are the moments of sparks and tickles. feel it. enjoy it, but never forget the deepest desire of your heart and your greatest love. dwell in this moment, D.E.)

Sparks

There are reasons and persons who made difference in our lives. Some of them stay for a while, others do remain for a longer time. This entry is for My Moon and Stars-who brought light during dark days, who sustains love in friendship, who give reasons to smile, who holds my hands, who makes my heart happy and who asks, risks and love.
Original Sunshine, gone were the days that I neglect your texts and reject your calls. Today, I know my heart better and it’s call. You continue to brighten my days with excitement and colors but I know my choice and I embrace it. Your presence brought light during my dark days, I am deeply grateful. My apologies for the pain I caused you and thank you for understanding. Now, we know who we are and I am happy. I am your friend, I deeply care for you and will always be. Thank you for all and be happy. Cute ka pa rin para sa akin hehehe.
Summer, for all that had been and will be--you remain to be one of the best in my life. Thank you, dear friend for everything. I will treasure you and continue to grow in the friendship that we have. Stay happy and truly blessed.
George, there are days that you really surprise me with your smile and your simple gestures. My heart skips every time you amazed me. We lived in two different worlds--you are silent, I am loud. You’re home buddy, I love social life. You smile in silence, I laugh out loud. You are cautious, I am careless. You like to be alone, I love crowds. We have totally different personalities yet I’m glad that in friendship we learn to accept and love each other. Thank for your silence, simplicity, thoughtfulness and sweet smile that I usually encounter in most unexpected places and circumstances. Aaminin ko, minsan kiikilig ako sayo hahaha…
Mybok, thank you for the chocolates, books and football times. Through the years, thank you for holding my hands and loving my heart. I love you too much (that’s why we are friends). I look forward to seeing you soon and celebrate once more our beautiful heart connections. My Wednesdays are special because of you. Stay sweet and forever, i keep you in my heart. hahaha akala ng iba bf kita, toinks!
Angel Gabriel, there are moments that you really caught me off guard, in a happy way. I am grateful for the companionship we shared you helped me to be strong in my doubts and you allowed me to journey with you in your low moments. Truly we sing off beat tunes but I know together we create beautiful music. Thank you moonlight. Pinapalukso mo minsan ang puso ko hehehe
Mr Heart String, you seems to be the biggest surprise of all. You had my yes, so make sure you make most of this chance. I hope to know your world and as you would like to know mine. The distance between us and the schedule we have may not be friendly at all times. As you said there are ways to cross distance and time. Maybe, then let see... Minsan kinakabahan ako kasi baka mawalan ako ng immunity laban sa'yo hehehe...

Beyond the fleeting seasons and mysteries of life—thank you for bringing beautiful sparks in my heart--
to friendship and beyond—Cheers!
Happy Valentines!♥

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andyan ka na naman
parang kaylan lang
minsan ka lang mawala
pero bakit parang
nakakamiss ka bigla.

sana 'wag naman masanay
kasi...
alam mo na,
kumplikado ang mga bagay-bagay.

pero sa kahit anong paraan mo
palagi kang wagi
lagi mo akong napapangiti.

[inspirasyon mula sa mga ngiti ni Bb. Chi Na Ey]

♥

Ang puso na may wagas na pag-ibig at tunay na nagmamahal hindi napapagod. Handa nitong ipagdiwang ang lahat ng bagay nang mapagpalaya at hindi makasarili. Bukas na magtaya sa kaligayahan at pagkalubos ng kabuunan ng minamahal. Hindi ito manhid sa pagsakit at paghihirap subalit sa kadakilaan ng pagmamahal may lakas ito at tiwala. Tanggap na ang kapalaran ng pagmamahal at nasa kamay ng Bathala at ang gawa ay nasa pagbibigay ng buong sarili sa minamahal. Nagnanais ito ng paglago ng pagkatao, paglalim ng pananaw sa buhay at pagyakap ng buo sa damdamin.
Marami ang nagnanais at naghahagad ng tunay na pag-ibig, ngunit minsan, ito ay mailap. Marahil kailangan talagang maghintay, magpagod at magtiyaga upang maging kapakipakinabang at nararapat sa espesyal na biyaya.

Amen

Salamat sa walang sawang pagmamahal
walang katapusang pagyakap ng pag-ibig mo sa akin
hindi sapat ang salitang mahal rin kita
kung gaano ako kasaya na minamahal mo ako.

Ikaw, Kristo ang aking Panginoon
ngayon at magpakaylanman.
Amen.

[a moment of consolation
16th Vocation Week Celebration
Ateneo de Naga University]

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When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while--BM

'di naman dapat mag explain
hindi rin kailangan magpaalam
ang cute mo lang kasi tingnan,
hindi naman ako nagtatanong
bakit ka nagpapaliwanag?
wala naman ako sinasabi
bakit ka bumabawi?

'wag kang ganyan
ikaw ha, baka ano na yan?

gaya ng dati,
nagdala ka na naman ng ngiti
sa aking mga labi.

salamat, angel gabriel.♥

HIGH jumps!

my 2010's story.
completed part of my bucket list.
obtained through God's grace.

The Roadruns. Countless morning joggings, 7 fun runs, 1 national race and 1 international marathon. Increase in endurance, changes in ptr, extended distance (up to 14km stretch!), healthier body, happier mind and freeier heart. I clamor for more!
My running mates: Achi Mya, Dancing Mafia, Master Runner, Running Warrior, Rising Star, Discerning Eaglet, Ball Dribble and others. My Twin Towers, who asked me to my first run 10 years ago.
Starbucks, my third place. Welcome to Naga and stay forever. Countless starbucks memories. Heartfelt kwentong starbucks. 16 stickers. Beautiful planner. Expanding tumbler collection. Coffee treats. Trade secrets. Hearty laughs. Treasured friendships. Genuine connections. Love. Love. Love.
Table stories. delicious food and happy company.Laughter and burps. Food trips. Pig outs. Tea sessions. Night dates. Breakfast meals.Photoshoots. Durian ice cream. Corned beef. Hot calamansi honey tea. Cinnamon swirl. Lychee jelly. Tsinong talong. Pancit guisado. Mocha java frost. Palabok. OMG crispy pata. Gambasetti. Buko Juice. Bunch of lunch. Wowchow. Toasted Siopao. Asado Mami. Sili ice cream. Sizzling chicken. TCB. Shakeys. Molino Grill. Karlos. Coldshack. Beanbag. Musicbox. Coffee&Co. Coko Cafe. Red Platter. Mama's Kitchen.
Travels. Road trips to undiscovered lands, seas, mountains, falls and caves of Bicol. Manila mania. Baguio homecoming. Palawan paradise. Calaguas explore. Caramoan adventure. Albay escape. CamNorte drive. Sorsogon discovery and more! pack your bags, travel mates. Let's go!
The Big Bangs. AdNU at 70. Devotion to Ina at 300. Birthdays. Weddings. Family affairs. House parties. Glamour, beauty,shine, bloom, linger.
Heart connections. Witches (happier-stronger @14 years—more kids and warlocks to come!), Computer Wizard and (welcome back to my life) and Dream Team (together!), Hairbrush (more coffee breaks), Foursome (thank you for the prayer sundates, XOXO) SuperB at old friends (im happy to grow old with you) Residents of Pooh -old and new(my heart finds home in you) Achi Mya and the Boys*(buko juice, runs, strawberry fields and beyond-eat, pray, run! Gracias ♥♥♥)Tropa (for the discoveries, affirmations, heart leaps and hangovers). ; Fb & fs (across the world)
My Moon and Stars. Original sunshine (for the light even during rainy days); Summer (Thank you for your love); George (you never cease to surprise me).Bok (through the years, thank you for holding my hands) Mr. Heart String (next time you ask, my answer is yes.) Angel Gabriel (thank you moonlight, you always make my heart happy.) Beyond the fleeting seasons and mysteries of life—thank you for bringing beautiful sparks in my heart.
My Lovelines. Beyond distance and changing times your love and support made me see the beauty in simplest thing, the joy in the plainest gesture and the graces in the ordinary. To the moon and back I love you too much.
Moontime. Moments of solitude, to listen to the stirrings within. Days of retreat and prayer, to look into the greatness in nothingness and emptiness in perfection. Time alone--to explore, to cry, to laugh, to forgive, to be thankful, to be naughty, to be nice, to dream, to win, to lose, to risk. To live and love.
My God. His eyes, looking at me. His hands, embracing me. His heart, loving me. I received many blessings, sacrificed some. I experienced abundance of happiness, endured some pains. For everything that You gave me, all of me is yours, my Lord.

365.25 days of beautiful life!♥♥♥