3in1

[suitor+siopao+waves]

I’ve heard many love stories and 3in1 is one of them. Unfortunately, like a great number of heart journeys, theirs belong to the cluster of the busted files.

Siopao is Suitor’s one true love. The story of his love for her goes along way back. On his end, it was a story woven from an entwined series of deep emotional involvement, a young man’s golden dream and a clear call to love.

The First Wave
After months of presentation, declaration and actualization, his love was declined. Yet, it was a love that knew no rejection. It survived being hidden and unrecognized. It bloomed, though betrayed and unrequited. It remained strong after many storms. It survived countless encounters with natural death.

The Second Wave (after two years)
Like some love stories, theirs was given a probable second chance (when her first choice failed). After a long period of time, Siopao sought him out. Once more, Suitor came upon her like a gallant knight. He did everything to give her company during her dark moments of brokenness. In the process, he allowed himself to be more vulnerable yet deeply happy. He was more in love with her. Like mighty warrior, he risked again to face the battle of love. This time he was more familiar with what lies in the battlefield. But no greater pain was that of a loss because of betrayal of someone who deemed to be his best ally. There is no greater pierce of sword that of losing the battle without warning because of hidden realities grounded on the unreasonable principle of persons concerned. However, the dagger that wounded him most was the truth concealed by Siopao herself, a relevant reality she kept unknown to him because she feared of hurting him.

Once more, she cannot love him back because her heart beats for another, his bestfriend. The only and hardest option that was left to him was to stop fighting the battle—not because the possibility of winning is impossible but because that will make her happy.

Apologies from Siopao dcannot placate his tears, cannot appease his broken heart, not even soothe the painful betrayal nor alleviate the throbbing rejection. He was defeated again, squared and cheated by an ally and his beloved.

As Suitor drags his feet and walks on his dark tunnel again, my prayer goes to him. May he be able to cry out his frustrations through tears; in every word muttered in agony may he shed the pain of betrayal; in every move made in brokenness may he be able to gather himself again; may he be able to find the strength and the courage to continue walking.
I cannot blame Siopao for her actions, for I believe that there is no easy way to break somebody’s heart. I pray that she may truly be happy in her decision. I hope that she made the right choice.
I pray that both of them may experience true love--whether in happiness or in pain.
[this is the story i promised to suitor while at starbucks one august moonlit night]